The leading cause
of death in creativity
For the past month I have been paralyzed by my fears as a writer. Most of them stemmed from the perfectionist in me, who was overcomplicating everything. I crippled myself with the belief that I couldn't write a good sentence or prose, or story. No ones criticism got to me, no rejection got the better of me. I did.
I am so close, on the brink of success with many of my stories that I got scared. I was afraid of how simple and easy writing was. In a way it was too easy, I couldn't be a good writer if things were that easy right?
I am one draft away from having the first book in my series done and ready to share with the world. And that scares me. I have a drawer, a large tote, two dvds and three thumb drives full of stories that are at different levels of completion. A lot of them are just shy of being completed.
Yet I am hiding. Hiding behind self inflicted complications. Behind the notion that no one really cares what I have to say, or that I don't believe I have anything important to say.
I am afraid I won't succeed, but more than that I am afraid that I will. My series has the potential to be Epic. But I am so scared that I will S*** the bed. (Excuse the phrase.)
I have to remind myself daily that simple is fine. Over complicating a story can destroy the story, and ones courage and strength. In a field that is all about tearing each other down and constant rejection, the last thing that any of us needs to be doing is defeating ourselves before we have barely begun.
So here is to encouragement. Here is to no longer complicating things more than they already are. And here is to no longer being afraid of failure or success. But most of all here is to getting back to the basics. Simply Write.
- K. A. Petentler