Mine stayed with me. The article stated that as a Gemini I had a duel personality one side, I fancied myself the genius voice of my generation, while on the other I was in all actuality a moron.
While I do not believe the second part of this statement, I had to admit that I have a tendency to fancy myself the next, up and coming, great writer; even though there is no evidence or proof to suggest that this is true. After all, I can not get an agent, I desperately need an editor, and I can't seem to grasp certain grammatical laws.
You might be wondering what brought on my woes, and troubles. As I have mentioned before I entered a contest called Ink and Insights 2015 at http://www.critiquemynovel.com/ink_insights_2015 I entered it three times; a high school story: The Kingdom of Jade, A Greek Mythology story, Chasing Immortality(which name has now been changed to The Immortality Clause.) and my fairytale story that I wrote for NaNoWriMo, Unmasked.
I received the last critique today.
The first I received back was Kingdom of Jade (amateur category); as a rough draft I was honestly not expecting very good feedback, and I received what I was expecting, however it was at least 'promising' and I had good details at the 'master's' level. After this I thought If I could get semi good reviews on a first draft of a book; surely the other books I placed in the contest would do even better.
The second critique I received was for my Masters entry: Chasing Immortality (whose name I have now changed to The Immortality Clause). One out of the four judges understood exactly what I was trying to do with this book and gave me great feedback. The others didn't like it at all. I have gone back at this point and improved it, to the point that I think it is ready for publication now.
Last but not least, the reason for this post. Unmasked, my mermaid fairytale. It was edited, worked on, and ready to publish, in fact I released it on kindle and then took it off, to submit to this contest. I was so confident in this story... And they hated every last bit of it. The only good comment I received was that one of the judges liked the name of my character. One thought it was too much like Little Mermaid, while others thought that I should reveal everything up front.
The realization that something I had worked so hard on, and was so sure about to be taken and torn apart, after just having read the first 10,000 words was hard. The thing that is absurd... is not the contest or the judges, it was me thinking that I was going to be the next Walt Disney or J.K. Rowling. I guess this contest is my wake up call to reality.
I can barely get a children's book to sell, can't garner any attention or sales to be able to afford to print the next book or even attempt my marketing plan for Halloween. I have little to no experience as a writer, didn't got to school to become a writer, and yet somehow I believed so strongly in my own dream that like Apollo, I deceived myself with my own prophecy. (Apollo and Daphne- Metamorphoses of Ovid)
After eating so much humble pie for my own birthday, I do just want to defend myself, a little. One thing I find interesting about Agents and Editors who read my books and after 10,000 words assume they know where the story is going...
is that it is a sad world, when books become that predictable. All I have to say to that is, Kingdom of Jade is not a romantic high school story, The Immortality Clause is a introduction into a whole new world of Greek Mythology... have you ever heard of Atlantis? Midas Touch? Hercules? You might think you know everything there is to know about Greek Mythology, but I can tell you right now, you don't.
Oh and finally, a fairytale that involves mermaids... does not automatically mean it is the Little Mermaid. If you read the whole book you might be surprised to find out just how much the main character 'grows up'. I will get off of my soap box with this last statement to Literary Agents, Publishers, Editors and Readers alike.
If you read my stories, you will not know where it is going. The reason for this is the fact that I hate being able to predict every cop show and drama that I watch. As soon as a character is introduced I can guess what is going to happen, why it is going to happen and the 'reasons behind' the criminal's actions. Because of this annoying quirk that I have. I try and write stories that are new, different and are least of all predictable.
A more humble, and more driven K. A. Petentler